Will things always be this terrible and what can I do to make myself feel better?

honey, there will be many ups and downs in life and sometimes you feel like you cant take it anymore, but remember this, you are strong and you can overcome all of this. With everything bad that happens, you become stronger and stronger. so just hold and try to survive this hard time. Remember that you have a family, a home, food, clean water, and many opportunities that people would give theyr arm for. believe me, life has so many precious moments and you just have to survive through the bad to see the beauty of life. dontworryy, and please, try to be happy. everything will be alright, its not the end of the world. :]